A couple days ago, I wrote about ending the cycle of co-dependent relationships. Remember the guy I wrote about in that post? Well, he called me yesterday to help with a children's mental health fair and I literally dropped everything to help him. As bad as it may sound, it wasn't the kids that moved me to immediate action. It was the thought that he needed me. I needed to be needed, just like I warned you guys about. Sigh. I thought that I had evolved past him and past this. Who was I kidding?
I think I feel even worse about allowing myself to get sucked back in because I know better. I'm not ignorant of the fact that this relationship is and will always be unhealthy for me. I know this. I KNOW THIS! But, I still allowed myself to believe that it might not be true despite the multiple clues to indicate otherwise. This is craziness....pure and utter insanity. Since I'd like to consider myself to be a sane person, I've decided that I must be possessed. Yep, that's it. I must take drastic measures to remove this man from my spirit.
Let the exorcism begin...
1. I am notifying all friends and asking them to refuse to discuss this man or this situation with me. If I become persistent, they are authorized to be mean, rude and brutally honest.
2. Although his number was already deleted from my phone (we all know how well that works), I am re-saving it as "HE DON'T WANT YOU" to remind myself every time he attempts to make contact.
3. I am re-committing to no contact no matter how guilty, angry, crazy, sad, or wishy-washy I may seem or feel.